OMG I suck at this!!!!

I cannot believe how long it's been since I've posted here! I've been having a ridiculously hard time adjusting to working mornings. Thank God my mother lives here and can pick up my slack. I still have no idea how to do anything on this blog either. I want to post pics and cool backgrounds but I don't know where they come from so I guess I'm stuck with this. So I'm committing to posting a blog once a week minimum. If nothing happens it'll be boring but I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

So for today it's back to the religion thing sort of. It's really about the Cub Scouts. My boys are both scouts now and seem to be enjoying it. It's great for the family in alot of ways since it forces us to make time for each other to complete the various requirements. So now we are looking into leading a den. It's not a crazy amount of work but there is training and stuff so I guess we'll see exactly what it entails then. The problem is my atheism. I try not to force my opinions and beliefs on my children. I'd prefer them to make up their own minds when they get older, but of course that's bullshit, kids learn the most from watching what the prominent adults in their lives do. I don't go to church or pray so they've never been exposed to church really. As a result one child believes in God and Jesus the other doesn't. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable to the scouts and we have to lie. The regular people don't really care, after all there aren't exactly that many active scouts these days, they might be getting desperate. I just hate having to pretend the way we do around certain people.

Here's an example: I say Oh my god alot so does my youngest. Some of the kids in the scouts freak out when we say it and reprimand us. First of all, it's not a scouting rule I can't say it but a personal thing. I know it's a commandment but not everyone who believes in god necessarily believes in that one. Second, saying dumb shit like "cheese and rice" is the same thing. The intent is to cover the use of "Jesus Christ" right? The intent is to use the lord's name in vain and as far as I'm concerned the substitute is just as bad as the real thing. It might help teach your children how to be PC but I doubt God is that stupid. Anyway, just a small rant. Now I'm off to soccer practice, where I pretend to like watching scoreless goalie-free no winner no loser sports!

Tomorrow's the big day

It's almost here and I'm still stunned. I've never been so excited to watch the inauguration before. On my moms site I wrote something about being excited and always a little in awe over the peaceful process we have in our country. Someone said it hasn't happened yet. I was stunned. I know people talk about the possibility of Obama being killed before he can take office but it just never seemed like an actual possibililty to me until I read that response. Scary. I still don't think it's going to happen but it took me back to the anger and hatred those few days around the election brought out in people and I'm reminded of how crazy people can be. It's so cliche but really "can't we all just get along?"

Toddlers & Tiaras

That was the name of the show I watched last night about those little kid beauty pageants. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem at all with these pageants. I think it's a little disturbing sometimes, those little girls who are about 10 really can look like much older teenagers. I would rather they not use fake teeth to cover up there missing baby teeth but it's not big deal to me. The thing I'm wondering is why are almost all the moms so horrible looking themselves! Especially, the moms of the more successful girls. Most of them are overweight and in some dire need of a style update. Huge Tammy Faye lashes and blue eyeshadow are simply unacceptable in 2009. As are mumus in public, and hi-waisted jeans, shoulder pads and jelly shoes. Unless of course you're at an 80's party. Maybe they could spend some of the $1000 dress money on a gym membership and a haircut. Just some evil thoughts.

Sometimes I just don't get it

I, for some reason I cannot fathom occasionally still look at the other moms blogs. Maybe it's just boredom. Today I find a comment from Lori talking about hatemail from me. I have no idea what she's talking about. The only time I ever emailed her was to support her the first time people thought she step down and then to agree with her about Brigitte Gabriel. I guess it was my response to all the hate-mongering I saw after the election. I did reference the blogs I read back then that I thought were scary and full of hate but whatever. I can't believe I stay in a group like that anyway. When I joined it seemed to have different types of people with different opinions. Once Lori took over it became a MOPS or something. The people I originally met are mostly silent now. It was like a covert Christian agenda had been instituted or something. I would've quit awhile ago but I enjoy book club and the occasional night-time event. Maybe it'll change now. Maybe I can just go to book club and not be a member. Who knows maybe I'll get kicked out when someone reads this.

I think we're hooked

to Guitar Hero World Tour that is. We just hooked it up last night and had a great time trying to play it. I'm thinking maybe we should've gotten Rock Band, the graphics are definitely better but really I have no idea how to access any of the DLC?? which is what people seem to say makes it better. It does have a no fail option which is something I could definitely use. I SUCK!!! Hopefully the more you play the easier it gets because we played for about 3.5 hrs and were only able to complete 1 song on easy. So anyway, like I said we're hooked. I can't wait to have people over and try having GH parties. I'll probably get RB too. I might never leave the house again.
I'm actually kind of pissed I have to go to NY tomorrow while my husband gets to stay home and practice!

Some random thoughts...

I'm so completely relaxed today it's ridiculous! All life's superficial stuff couldn't be better right now. I'm finally flying again (only for a day but still) and was able to get so much done since I didn't stop for a butt every 15 min. My team is actually in the running for a wild card (WHAT?!?) Xmas is almost here and while it looks to be lean we'll finally be spending the entire holiday together. It would be awesome if I could not go back to work ever again but we'll be broke by Jan so that is not going to be happening. I don't even care I lost my darts (in my own car btw) since they'll either turn up or I'll get new ones. So right now at 2:15 on Monday I'm super content.

I do of course have to bitch about something. What is it about mothers? Why do we have to describe every gross thing about our children in such detail? It's one thing if your being descriptive because it might help someone else to answer any questions you have asked but if you're just cancelling a playdate can't you just say Susie has a cold. I don't need to know the color and consistency of her snot every time. I also don't need to know who's finally pooping normally again and who's not. Again, if you're concerned and think a little description will help someone else identify an illness for you fine but do we have to have never ending discussions on this stuff? I know the life of a parent to a small child, especially a stay at home mom, can get monotonous but can't we ever talk about something besides what kind of gross shit is coming out what orifice?

Once again, I am stunned

By peoples beliefs that is. Anyone who actually knows me, knows I love biblical history. I love finding out when some of the stuff in these books are true. So I just finished watching a Koran special. I found out quite a bit I didn't know as far as the actual writing down went. I also didn't know since there is no "governing body" so to speak it is up to each person to read and interpret the meaning of this cryptic and confusing piece of writing. So of course similar to every other major religion Muslims can pick and choose which suras they want to display the rightness of their particular beliefs.

So here I am once again...wondering what is wrong with everyone.

How can they just believe these things they read in their various holy books, especially when the books themselves so often contradict themselves. When the history behind the creation or compilation of these "holy books" is known to have been flawed or at the very least heavily influenced by whatever the powers that be at the time wanted the religion to represent. I know everyone thinks about the Catholics first when they hear this. They were after all the most powerful for a very long time. They were instrumental in the Mary Magdalene being a whore bit simply by her placement in the bible, immediately following a whore that is. They were not the first to make up stuff for their religion and they will not be the last.

I still believe with all my heart, Christ's message, even Mohammed's message (when placed in historical context) are peaceful ones. So why do they seem to engender so much hate. Throughout time people have warred with one another over whose religion is right. Why? If I'm wrong why does anyone else care about my soul. I can just hear people saying I don't understand because I don't believe but that's simply BS. It's better to kill me than to allow me to believe whatever I believe?

There was a Newsweek article about the ways in which the bible supports gay marriage or at the very least does not support what we in the Christian west call marriage anyway. There are of course the usual outcries from the hypochristian right. "the writer will burn in Hell" (how very Christlike) and so on. Most of the anti-gay stuff in the bible is in the old testament, mixed with the how to properly make a sacrifice stuff and how to get a good price for a slave Yes, it does say a man shall not lay with a man, but not a word about women. If we're going to be literal does that mean it's ok for women? Again, I can hear it. I'm being ridiculous etc...

So I'm back at my original point. Once again I'm stunned. Stunned by people's intolerance, even hatred, of those who are not like themselves, who don't follow the exact same god, in the exact same way. They jump back and forth between fear of me and hatred of me.(Me and my filthy atheist friends of course) Someone even said I was pure evil. Wow!! Since I consider pure evil to be more along the Hitler, Pol Pot lines imagine my surprise. No wonder they want to kill each other over the religious differences. While we're there who exactly should a "good Christian" be fighting. I know the Muslims must fight the "infidel" but who does the christian fight these days? Some say Obama since he's the antichrist (there's another WOW!!!) Should the Baptists fight the Lutherans? How about the born-agains, I think they should take on the Mormons. Polygamy, the single most common type of marriage found in the bible, is obviously immoral and wrong, so somebody has to stop them. What about the scientologists? They are obviously nuts, rich but nuts. After all the idea of aliens putting themselves in volcanoes is so much crazier than a guy turning water into wine and bringing the dead back to life.

While I'm at it, I was watching that 17 & counting show the other night and they took their home-schooled kids to a Creation Museum. Where dinosaurs and people were together at the same watering hole so to speak. Where Jim-bob explained to his kids "see this is evolution, they say we come from monkeys" and the real winner "the earth is only about 6000 years old" WTF!!!! People say they want their kids raised in a world that reflects their values and I can respect that. I want my children raised in a world where idiots who spout this sort of nonsense are locked in cages. It should be child abuse to misinform children like this. I know science isn't perfect but holy shit are you kidding me? Can I just make up some alternate history about the "holohoax" or maybe that other "scientific theory" the neo-nazis have where black people are actually not human beings. Of course not ,that's crazy, but label it religion and you can say or do whatever you want. I'm rambling and I have to stop but like I said in my first post, this is one of those topics I will never tire of babbling about so be ready for more.