What a mess!

When I stared this blog the other day I truly had no intention for those on the mommy site to even see it. That's how novice I am at this stuff. I simply needed to vent. I follow the blogs of others to see what they're thinking, how similar we may or may not be and I suppose out of sheer curiosity. I'm sometimes amazed and stunned by what I read but have never maliciously thought or tried to hurt someone else. I stand by what I wrote, it is how I feel. I however, did not mean it as an indictment of any particular person or the way our club is run. I do feel the opinions of those not conservative are often taken immediately as some sort of insult but whatever I'm the minority and I know that. So, if I hurt anyone's feelings in particular I apologize. I was simply shocked by the vehemence and hatred oozing from people because the "wrong" guy won the election. People called us idiots, said we acted like he was some sort of God, fear the future and want to leave the country, MY COUNTRY.

As for the hypochristian thing...I did not at any point say this was all Christians nor did I say all Christians were the same. I'm well aware of the differences between the many denominations. I spent many years trying to find the right fit. I went to well over 50 different churches, synagogues, temples, halls even a Bahai group so small they met in a living room. I have discovered I simply don't believe any of it. I am a person of science, I believe we have not yet discovered our origins but I believe we will. I believe organized religion is pretty much the root of all evil. One group or another's "God" or dogma has been the cause of more death and destruction over the course of human history than almost everything else combined (leaving out the Black Death of course) and will be the cause of millions upon millions more.

I also fail to understand how people cannot question books that have been edited and rewritten countless times. Biblical history is full of examples of switching which books "made the cut" and which didn't based on the politics of the time. This is not something I've made up it is fact. It's full of great stories with great messages. It is also full of terrifying stories and sad messages.

I also cannot understand how people can possibly believe their religion is right and the millions of others who believe something else are wrong. There are millions of Buddhists, Hindus, Jews, and Muslims and Christians (and those are just the big ones) Somebody is wrong, somebody has to be. Yet, they each believe as fervently as the other.

The biggest problem I have though is this inability of others to understand that I believe what I believe just as strongly as they believe in their God. I should not have to keep that to myself or be afraid of recrimination when I speak out. This assumption I'm somehow lost or incapable of understanding is nonsense. My believing you're deluded does not mean I'm being malicious, just as you're believing I'm going to hell means you want me there. My experience with those people I call hypochristians has not been one to inspire any sort of desire to know their God. From telling my son we're going to hell because we haven't been saved, to saying Halloween is Satan worshipping. If you're one of the people who would say or do that then I did mean you.

Otherwise, these are simply my random thoughts on my experience. I love a great debate but I don't get offended by a difference of opinion. I find it disappointing so many others do. One small fact, 20% of this country now identifies itself as agnostic or atheist. That's more than enough to start speaking out for what we believe.