I think we're hooked

to Guitar Hero World Tour that is. We just hooked it up last night and had a great time trying to play it. I'm thinking maybe we should've gotten Rock Band, the graphics are definitely better but really I have no idea how to access any of the DLC?? which is what people seem to say makes it better. It does have a no fail option which is something I could definitely use. I SUCK!!! Hopefully the more you play the easier it gets because we played for about 3.5 hrs and were only able to complete 1 song on easy. So anyway, like I said we're hooked. I can't wait to have people over and try having GH parties. I'll probably get RB too. I might never leave the house again.
I'm actually kind of pissed I have to go to NY tomorrow while my husband gets to stay home and practice!

Some random thoughts...

I'm so completely relaxed today it's ridiculous! All life's superficial stuff couldn't be better right now. I'm finally flying again (only for a day but still) and was able to get so much done since I didn't stop for a butt every 15 min. My team is actually in the running for a wild card (WHAT?!?) Xmas is almost here and while it looks to be lean we'll finally be spending the entire holiday together. It would be awesome if I could not go back to work ever again but we'll be broke by Jan so that is not going to be happening. I don't even care I lost my darts (in my own car btw) since they'll either turn up or I'll get new ones. So right now at 2:15 on Monday I'm super content.

I do of course have to bitch about something. What is it about mothers? Why do we have to describe every gross thing about our children in such detail? It's one thing if your being descriptive because it might help someone else to answer any questions you have asked but if you're just cancelling a playdate can't you just say Susie has a cold. I don't need to know the color and consistency of her snot every time. I also don't need to know who's finally pooping normally again and who's not. Again, if you're concerned and think a little description will help someone else identify an illness for you fine but do we have to have never ending discussions on this stuff? I know the life of a parent to a small child, especially a stay at home mom, can get monotonous but can't we ever talk about something besides what kind of gross shit is coming out what orifice?

Once again, I am stunned

By peoples beliefs that is. Anyone who actually knows me, knows I love biblical history. I love finding out when some of the stuff in these books are true. So I just finished watching a Koran special. I found out quite a bit I didn't know as far as the actual writing down went. I also didn't know since there is no "governing body" so to speak it is up to each person to read and interpret the meaning of this cryptic and confusing piece of writing. So of course similar to every other major religion Muslims can pick and choose which suras they want to display the rightness of their particular beliefs.

So here I am once again...wondering what is wrong with everyone.

How can they just believe these things they read in their various holy books, especially when the books themselves so often contradict themselves. When the history behind the creation or compilation of these "holy books" is known to have been flawed or at the very least heavily influenced by whatever the powers that be at the time wanted the religion to represent. I know everyone thinks about the Catholics first when they hear this. They were after all the most powerful for a very long time. They were instrumental in the Mary Magdalene being a whore bit simply by her placement in the bible, immediately following a whore that is. They were not the first to make up stuff for their religion and they will not be the last.

I still believe with all my heart, Christ's message, even Mohammed's message (when placed in historical context) are peaceful ones. So why do they seem to engender so much hate. Throughout time people have warred with one another over whose religion is right. Why? If I'm wrong why does anyone else care about my soul. I can just hear people saying I don't understand because I don't believe but that's simply BS. It's better to kill me than to allow me to believe whatever I believe?

There was a Newsweek article about the ways in which the bible supports gay marriage or at the very least does not support what we in the Christian west call marriage anyway. There are of course the usual outcries from the hypochristian right. "the writer will burn in Hell" (how very Christlike) and so on. Most of the anti-gay stuff in the bible is in the old testament, mixed with the how to properly make a sacrifice stuff and how to get a good price for a slave Yes, it does say a man shall not lay with a man, but not a word about women. If we're going to be literal does that mean it's ok for women? Again, I can hear it. I'm being ridiculous etc...

So I'm back at my original point. Once again I'm stunned. Stunned by people's intolerance, even hatred, of those who are not like themselves, who don't follow the exact same god, in the exact same way. They jump back and forth between fear of me and hatred of me.(Me and my filthy atheist friends of course) Someone even said I was pure evil. Wow!! Since I consider pure evil to be more along the Hitler, Pol Pot lines imagine my surprise. No wonder they want to kill each other over the religious differences. While we're there who exactly should a "good Christian" be fighting. I know the Muslims must fight the "infidel" but who does the christian fight these days? Some say Obama since he's the antichrist (there's another WOW!!!) Should the Baptists fight the Lutherans? How about the born-agains, I think they should take on the Mormons. Polygamy, the single most common type of marriage found in the bible, is obviously immoral and wrong, so somebody has to stop them. What about the scientologists? They are obviously nuts, rich but nuts. After all the idea of aliens putting themselves in volcanoes is so much crazier than a guy turning water into wine and bringing the dead back to life.

While I'm at it, I was watching that 17 & counting show the other night and they took their home-schooled kids to a Creation Museum. Where dinosaurs and people were together at the same watering hole so to speak. Where Jim-bob explained to his kids "see this is evolution, they say we come from monkeys" and the real winner "the earth is only about 6000 years old" WTF!!!! People say they want their kids raised in a world that reflects their values and I can respect that. I want my children raised in a world where idiots who spout this sort of nonsense are locked in cages. It should be child abuse to misinform children like this. I know science isn't perfect but holy shit are you kidding me? Can I just make up some alternate history about the "holohoax" or maybe that other "scientific theory" the neo-nazis have where black people are actually not human beings. Of course not ,that's crazy, but label it religion and you can say or do whatever you want. I'm rambling and I have to stop but like I said in my first post, this is one of those topics I will never tire of babbling about so be ready for more.

A few downs but more ups this week.

So, the smoking...I did it! It's only been a week but I can just tell I'm done. It feels so good to have that demon off my back. Don't get me wrong, I'm still doing way too much eating but that should ebb soon and then it'll be the new year and time to work on the weight loss. Really, whether I end up with 10 extra pounds or so doesn't really matter as long as I'm feeling better in general.

Another huge step, at least with regard to my mental health, is quitting my job. I love some of the people I work with but for the most part it is the most messed up place with the most messed up people I've ever come into contact with. There are 3 people (well now 2) who don't do drugs, almost everyone with kids have either lost custody or given them up or just don't support them. I can't even start on M & M. What lousy miserable and selfish people. I can't wait till they are nothing but memories. I know $$ will be tight for a bit but I really think a little time to get grounded again will do me and my family wonders. God knows the house could use some TLC. I really need to concentrate on Sean and getting this whole testing thing going so I know this will be start of great times for us. It's been such a lousy year for my extended family it's been hard to remember how lucky we really are. There are always some ups and downs but mostly we have ups. Our children our healthy (or at least free from major health issues) and the limited time we have together is spent laughing. What else is there really? Nothing that actually matters in the long run. I know I tend to jump to absolute and extreme reactions which probably seems to friends like I'm miserable half the time but that's just me.

So, I don't believe in New Years Resolutions but I do believe in fresh starts or at least little tweaks. So my plans the rest of the year are to sit back and relax and let whatever will be be. I'm going to embrace it all, good and bad,the easy and the stuff that requires work. This is my life and I'm once again ready to live it to it's fullest.

Well, here goes nothin!

So I'm on day 3 of no smoking and about to come up against the most difficult challenge yet...work at the bar. It wouldn't be so bad if we had regular rules like a normal place. Nope, we can smoke whenever and wherever we want. I can take an order with a cigarette hanging out of my mouth if I want. To make it worse it's a coworker and friends b-day party tonight so it'll probably be crowded and extra smokey. However, I have faith I can do this. As long as I don't get into my own head and talk myself into smoking I'll be fine. My boss and husbands best friend actually said some dumb shit about that too. I was looking for my candy (I'm gaining a pound a day unfortunately) and he says you know it's all in your head. No shit! Then claims when he quit it was no problem at all. I didn't know him then but I know he a fat pig now, so I'm guessing he started eating 12 years ago and hasn't stopped since. I hope I only gain about 10 pounds but I guess it'll be worth it. Anyway, here goes nothin!